dear diary, three months ago feels like another life altogether.
Sun. 15 Jan 2023 15:18
—I prayed today. Spoke aloud to whomever and it felt good.
Bear said when my cup is full, to empty it and start again. Don’t get attached to what you’ve “earned” or succeeded in. Be open and willing to begin again at any time. If you don’t choose to, the universe can always choose it for you.
Empty yourself of beliefs, labels about the world, opinions of others… be generous, there’s enough for everyone. Existence is never short of magic, incredible experiences, gifts for our souls, beautiful connections, beauty of nature.
—It’s my Red Tent day and it is glorious. I woke up, laid above the waterfall in the morning sun. Ate eggs, fried onion, pumpkin and cheese, bone broth with miso and ginger, a chocolate brownie with peanut butter. All I’ve done today is eat. lay in the sun. put blood on my face. make myself cum. I love being a woman!!!
I will remain grateful amidst the unsteadiness. Sometimes it is easier to let yourself drown than to tread water for your whole life trying to stay afloat.